Dear Lovely Reader
It’s been a minute as I’ve not written a post in a while.
Things have been quite busy and project abode seems to have taken over every waking minute.
Check out pictures of Gem’s room here.
Gem started nursery and loves it.
I dropped her off one day and she hit the table in excitement as toast was being served.
I worry a lot (as any new mum would) but she seems to have enjoyed her first week.
Amidst all this excitement, I start work tomorrow and I am a little nervous.
As with a few of my blog posts, I’m writing this as a therapeutic venture and I am setting it out as a pros & cons list.
Pros of working again:
1) Earning money again – despite being married to a wonderful man, there’s an insecurity and weirdness about having a conversation on spending money when you’re not actually earning any.
I know my Louboutin-buying days are very limited now I have a child. However, I want to feel less guilty about getting my little luxuries.
2) Me-time – I will have a dedicated time to catch up on reading, listen to music etc, during my new and longer commute from the sticks.
3) Guaranteed adult conversation – this I am looking forward to. The whole mummy social scene bored me from pretty early on and there were days the only adult I spoke to was ❤Throb.
As such, I’m happy to go back to work where my girl Miss H sits next to me and makes me laugh regularly.
4) Using my brain again – I have used my brain in different ways over the last 14 months but it will be nice to spark up those work brain muscles again.
5) Gem’s growth and stimulation – my darling daughter can get to hang out with other kids her age, take part in fun activities and not have to run boring errands with her Mummy.
Cons of working again:
1) Missing Gem – I will miss my little darling quite a lot. She is developing into a beauty and a fabulous toddler to hang out with.
I’ve got Wednesdays off so those will be for Gem hangouts.
2) Longer commute – living in the sticks is great and we are discovering fabulous countryside so no complaints there. However, it will take longer to get to work and although this will give me additional reading and me-time, it will mean having to be well organised to get to pick Gem up from nursery on time.
3) Faking it – the past year has been a steep learning curve in being a mum. However, I know that I’ve never once felt like a fake.
Sometimes, in my job, I feel like I will get found out eventually as I don’t believe I’m born to be doing what I do.
4) Exhausted – The sheer exhaustion of being a working mum, resulting in rushing everywhere and not actually doing anything properly.
5) Work-life balance – Will my job and it’s associated expectations fit in sufficiently with my role as wife and mum?
For now, my bag is all packed and I’ve made sure to check that I do not have one of Gem’s plastic spoons or bibs swimming around in my work bag
I will keep you informed of how I get on.